To New Beginnings

I suppose this was inevitable. Me, starting a blog. Again.

I had another blog once. It was a good blog. An awesome blog. A blog to end all blogs. But it didn't. End all blogs, that is. There are still one or two floating around the recesses of the worldwide webs. You can probably find them if you look really hard.

But my blog was fun. And poorly designed. And it even had music blaring from the bottom of the scroll-heavy pages. (Hey, it was 2007. It was a different time back then, man.) People hated that, but they kept coming back. By the hundreds every day. 

Even more when I got rid of the music player.

But then life happened. And more life happened. And I realized what a time-suck that blogging had become. And how often my automatic response to the coolest or most significant moments of my life was, "That will make good blog fodder." And how seldom I was truly living in the moment with the people that I loved as a result.

So I stopped. Cold turkey. One day I was a blogger, and the next...

I didn't know what I was.

I just knew what I wasn't.

I wasn't a 'stay-up-'til-three-in-the-morning-to-finish-this-post' girl. Or a 'not-now-honey-I-gotta-return-these-comments' wife. Or a 'quit-your-crying-and-put-on-this-goofy-hat-so-I-can-post-your-embarrassing-pic-to-the-blogosphere-to-the-praise-and-adulation-of-my-many-nameless-faceless-admirers-and-to-your-eternal-unending-and-possibly-debilitating-shame' mom.

God willing, I will never be that again.

But I do miss writing. And sharing stories about life in all its minutiae. And saying snarky things that make people laugh. And having a voice, separate and distinct, even if I'm only using it to shout into the void from this little tiny iceberg of bandwidth that I call my own. 

And so I'm here, giving this another shot, and praying for the strength to resist the temptation to overindulge in this good thing. 

In all things, moderation, I tell myself. You can do this.

Baby steps.

Thing is, I've never been a baby steps kind of girl. My motto? If a thing's worth doing, it's worth overdoing. Twice.

So, this shall be an adventure for both of us. The thrill ride that is restrained casual blogging. 

Do you think you can handle that kind of excitement?

Well, then, let the adventure begin!